~welcome to my world~

Feeling unattractive and alone. I know you said I was golden once but I don’t feel it. I feel like dirt, not in a good way


Xiao Wen Ju
what do you do when you have a crush on your teacher?


Those that can’t do teach.

If you’re looking for a fling get yourself a room in a cheap but clean hotel near a highway or interstate, have a glass of wine somewhere nice, sit somewhere and focus on your own inner power but definitely don’t take any men or women home. Stay up for a night and stare at the lights out the window and listen to the cars buzzing by, read poetry or listen to music, speak aloud when you have a beautiful thought (a fling with yourself). If you’re too young, too stubborn, or don’t find that appealing then let your feelings happen and try and channel them into something that isn’t superficial (your art, your writing, the energy you put into physical exercise). 

If you have true feelings for your teacher then I do not know specifics and cannot advise you, but my first reaction is to say: Push through it. Things that come and go are a beautiful part of life and an opportunity for growth.

i feel so embarrassed about what i said last night ugh. alcohol just brings out the emotional side of me. i basically act like i’m in love but when i wake up, i don’t even feel that way. i have a problem differentiating between actually ‘liking’ someone and just being in awe of them. 



omg i love art aaaaa i’m so happy i’m doing this

trying to rock a mini bun today ~

g, i hope you feel me, i hope you accept it, i can’t deal with this, take it away, i don’t know what to do, why, how, when, why, how, ugh

I think you know you’ve found someone special when you meet them for the first time, and it feels like you’re just picking up where you left off. You kind of look at them and think ‘Where the hell did you come from? Where the hell have you been?’
heading out to my first art lecture thing :)

Joan Mitchell


early morning // cornwall, england

On my list.


Grouper//Heavy Water / I’d Rather Be Sleeping (Dragging a Dead Deer Up a Hill, 2008)

In dreams
I’m moving through heavy water
the love is enormous
its lifting me up

I’d rather be sleeping
I’d rather fall in to tidal waves
and go where the deepest currents fall

(via kirrsty)